Hello everyone, the following entry is something I was thinking the past couple of days. I am sad to announce that I am stuck and hope that through writing and other creative outlets I can discover what I need to do to get out of the rut I feel that I am in. Anyways here is the blog:
I was looking through my friends list on "___" one of my random social networks that I am in before going to the presidential debate ( it was for the socialist and libertarian parties) when I saw one of my old crushes is going to "___" well that school is one of the top ten universities in the country, yes one of the top ten!! Okay Okay so its not in the uperhalf of the list but its still a really really great school. I always knew he was smart, and that was one of the main reasons I was initially attracted to him. My point is not that I am jealous or angry that he is over there getting the best education ever and I am stuck here in these job(s) that are going no where and school that is driving me crazy ( not because the classes are hard but because its not grabbing my attention).I have never really thought that I my intelligence was above average or that I was stupid, I mean I graduated from one of the top 25 high schools in the United States, I had great teachers in high school, and I have to admit I was to immature and blew all the chances they gave me to succeed.And now, im starting sentences with and and because, and feeling so what the hell happened. I want to have a serious discussion about politics, world affairs, art and philosophy without feeling tongue tied and actually get my ideas out there. I need to be stronger. So today my resolution is to not let this drive me crazy, I will get out of this, and I will be strong!
J.J.H
